o.o.c. history of Silver

this page is a work in progress, so it will be changed and added to later. Silver is an old character for me though, as i've made prototypes of them for decades – much longer than they've even had a solid name! some of my other OCs actually started as prototypes of this character who branched off into vastly different directions than i intended, so i ended up just letting them be their own thing. even in my childhood though i was looking to make the "ultimate" character though, at least to put a little more of myself into than my other original characters, that i would also feel more attached to than my other characters. a good name felt integral, but i couldn't think of anything i liked enough to use for years.
for a while i'd settled on a completely different character to fill this role and gave up on making something that would fit better, but i eventually became dissatisfied by my current "main" character's ability to fit what i wanted of them while still being their own person ...well, person / character / whatever. that character remains dear to me still, but as i let go of them around 2009 i started coming up with some name ideas i liked and used for a while, eventually discarding all the ones i didn't care for until i was left with just the name Silver. and why did the name have to be unique or complicated? Silver felt like the obvious answer that was always sitting right in front of me, and i just somehow never saw it. the rest of the character slowly fell into place after that, becoming the Silver as they are today.

as they are now, Silver is both an original character in my private original works, and is also the main character i use to represent myself when i play any game that lets me represent myself through an avatar. this means they have a lot of "alternate universe" variations for different continuities made by other people, in which they still exist as close to their original incarnation as they can but generally also within what's reasonable for that continuity.
i don't consider them to be me, or an avatar of myself or anything (and i do already have an avatar / fursona, but my fursona is completely different than and separate from Silver); Silver is just a character i've both put a little more of myself into than my others, and have given my personal favorite spread of appearance, personality traits, and skills to finally have made my "ultimate" character. i suppose it then begs the question why couldn't i have just modified any other character to be this for me? why have invested so much time into making a character that culminated in being Silver to have wasted it all so needlessly? and the answer is, well, i'm not sure exactly myself. a lot of things i do by feel, and i can at least tell you it wouldn't 'feel' right to just change a character i already had; i use 'making' as a shorthand for more like... partially trying to craft the character but also seeing how fitting or not fitting what i've made is for that character. and sometimes they have a lot to say about how unfitting my ideas for them are! in that way, they sort of decide for themselves who they are, and smashing them to pieces to remake them anew feels like destroying a person. a pretend person, yes, but they're a little more than just lifeless toys to me. i had to find Silver first and allow them to tell me who they are as i gave them my ideas and plans for them, and the character that finally became Silver flourished in all the ways i wanted them to.
i still love my other characters as well, but i suspect this one will always be most special to me.


as an aside, as this character is a multi-fandom character in addition to existing in their own original world, the full breadth of their profile is intentionally not linked to prevent the spread of OOC meta-knowledge. my several decades' worth of RP experience has shown me very strongly most people just aren't capable of refraining from using OOC knowledge of a character in their posts. which isn't something i'm saying with any malice towards people who do that, just that i'm not fond of it and prefer to avoid that happening, as well as... i just find having all info fully available takes away a lot of the mystery and discovery of learning new things about a character organically both IC and OOC. that's a big part of the RP fun imo!
"how does not having their full profile with all instances of the character lead to revealing meta knowledge?" aside from the obvious "having every single detail of a character's backstory laid out means players can straight-up gather a lot of knowledge their character wouldn't have access to," Silver is a very consistent character across my original writing and all the fandom continuities they exist in. i try to fit them neatly into each world while maintaining their integrity as a character, but some worlds by nature of their story and events that affect Silver force out more information about them than others. in World X maybe something happens to Silver that makes something sensitive from their past common or public knowledge, whereas in World Y an event like that never happened so that part of Silver can remain hidden (for now.) and since i try to keep Silver's backstory generally consistent across all worlds, at least in the types of events that happen to them and their effects on Silver's character, this can tell players things they shouldn't know. so, therefore, all the various subsections of the site for AU versions of Silver as well as my other characters aren't linked to from my site itself; they exist only as part of the Deep Web and are linked to on demand by me.

all of this is only sort of related to my backstory pages for all characters not being entirely truthful, as they're basically a consolidation of the rumor mill and things that would reasonably be public knowledge about that particular character, true or not. like all rumor mills, you're going to have to find out for yourself what's true and what isn't! of course, if you don't enjoy this kind of thing you can also just ask me for links, though i generally provide full character info only to trusted friends or people who have no intent on RPing with me at all.